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Friday, 19 September 2008

I'm supposed to be asleep right now cause i'm exhausted. But i couldn't.
There's just too many things bugging me on my mind. Too many things i'm unhappy about.

Why can't people just be fair and considerate to others? What the hell do they think la? People who are in their favor or they is to their liking deserve a better treatment? WELL, WHAT THE ABOUT THE OTHERS?! We just have to watch and keep our mouths shut although we feel unhappy? Don't we have the right to voice out what we feel?

I just can't help feeling this way. I really dunno whether do i have the right to feel this way because every single time i think about this, i feel guilty. Although i didn't do anything wrong. I just wish i can tell them. Their ways just makes me feel that i'm worthless compared to their friends.

Whenever i'm sick or absent, its like as if i'm invincible. Some idiots don't even know whether i'm there or not. Its like as if my presence doesn't make any difference. Whether i'm there or not- they just don't bother! is it that hard to just ask if i'm ok? Apparently, they have better things to do.

All this has been really going on and on my mind these few days. Its VERY VERY UNFAIR on how they treat certain people. I just hope this doesn't go on CAUSE I SERIOUSLY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!

Now, that its off my chest, i hope i can sleep better at night. I'm still unhappy. Aargh!

Monday, 21 July 2008

Something quite funny happened just now. I was having dinner when i heard a bike outside my house. I ignored it, telling myself that it would be for the neighbours. Then, my maid told me that there is someone outside. I realised it was the pizza delivery man. So, i went outside thinking that he probably got the wrong address- i didn't order pizza by the way. Lol. Then he said good evening and he handed the pizza and the bill over to me. I said to him that i didn't order anything. He went huh? I told him u must have gotten the wrong add. The thing was it was the right add! Lol. He read out from the bill, my house address. Then, i got confused... How can a wrong delivery be made when the add is correct? He went saying is there any Mr.john here? Mr. john made the order. Then, i said no. No mr.john i'm aware of in my house. he he. He was clearly confused-who knows deep down inside he is cursing me thinking that i made a prank call or something. Scary. But luckily he wasn't one of those rude people. He just said sorry and left. I wonder if he found the right person after all? I hope it was no prank call or the pizza would be a waste. Oh ya, I think i saw garlic bread too. Ha ha. Good luck, delivery man! =D

I received an unexpected call on friday night. Anyways, i just want to say thanks alot for calling. It proved that our friendship still remained after all these years. Thanks once again. Hope to see you around soon. =)

Saturday, 21 June 2008

empty

life's not really good right now. everything seems wrong. nothing is right. waking up is getting more and more difficult. Sigh.

they say more hurtful things. they ignore even more then they ever did before. i just hate getting out of the house. i don't even like staying in. either i appear invisible or they just expect me to take everything they say and act like as if nothing happened. i would just appreciate if they realized that i have feelings too. i just want to be alone.

there is nothing much to look forward to. everything sucks.

i got back my statistics test results back. and it was awful. i felt like the dumbest person alive. one of classmate even got 100 marks. why does it always got to be like this?

waited for the bus alone as usual. then, i saw the bus coming. i got down from the bus stop to get up the bus.
guess what? The bus just passed by! OMG! i was furious! i heard some giggles from my back. some idiots were laughing me. felt like screaming at their faces. i was already having a bad day and they are helping making it worse.
i went back and sat down quietly. Waited for the stupid bus. Finally, it came.

there is so many things to do but so little time. homework, assignments, past year papers, tests! Arrgh! i'm gonna drop dead anytime.

Sunday, 08 June 2008

Expected rejection.

Yup, expected rejection. My jpa appeal. I didn't make it for the scholarship. What can i say? Sigh...Life still has to go on. Just have to wait and see what happens. =.
For one night only.

On friday i went to my lecturer's wedding dinner... Actually its sort of a bachelorette dinner cause it was one day before her wedding. Wow, we really had a hard time getting there because of transportation. We planned to go to pyramid right after class to get her a wedding gift. We first decided to get her electrical appliances. Then we changed our mind to get her a bed sheet set. One of my friends actually called her to ask whether her bed is a queen or king size. Ha ha... By the way, its was queen size.

When we finally thought we found the perfect one, it was in king size! So changed our mind again! This time we wanted to get her something from the body shop. We went to Yves Rocher and got her a set of body care products. Then we decided to go home. But since some of them are staying quite far, this staying in subang offered to them to change and get ready at their place. One of my friend followed me back home. We took a cab cause it was getting quite late. We later learned that at that time, around 5 to 6, its difficult to get a cab. Our plan was to take a cab to my lecturer's place after my other 2 friends came over to my place. I called the cab earlier so that there wouldn't be a problem to get one later. The 4 of us waited for the cab and didn't come.
So i called again and the operator put the line on hold. I hung up and called again and she did the same thing. Then my friend called and the lady said "No taxi available"! What the heck man! Then just on time, my mum came back. Luck was on our side. She sent us there.

The way to my lecturer's place was so winding and confusing. If i was the one driving, i would have been lost. Ha ha. The lecturer's brother guided us there. So many people involved. Lol!
The lecturer looked great. Of course, she didn't look like a lecturer. Ha ha. The food was great too. I imagined how grand and exclusive her wedding dinner would be. She did invite us to her wedding the next day but i couldn't make it. I think the others went though.

It would be a interesting experience as i have never witnessed a traditional chinese wedding before. As usual, we stood out of the crowd, because of the noise we made. Ha ha. They must have been thinking we are a bunch of crazy teenagers!! Lol!! Something embarrasing happened but i don't wanna mention it here. He he. =X

Then, it was time to go home. My friend's brother sent me home. Guess what? I got a little confused and didn't know the way home. I was hesitating. I didn't realize that it is actually the daily route of the bus i always take because it was quite dark. The situation got quite tense. But eventually, i did give the correct directions and got home. Thank god! I don't know why the roads looked really different to me at night. Sigh. =(
Well, it was a long and tiring day but i did have fun. =D